It's been a couple of days....

I believe the last time that I made a vlog update, I was either waiting to Ovulate or just beginning my 2ww. So far since the last time that I have updated there hasn't been much of a change? (well in my eyes...lol).

Okay so lets start out by going over some symptoms that I am having so far during this 2ww:

-lack of hunger

-sleep deprivation

-WEIRD dreams

-mood swings

-increased sex drive (tmi)

-cravings (but indecisive for what I am craving)

-constipation (slowly going away)

-a little cramping (not alarming just uncomfortable)

I am trying not to get my hopes up, in fear that my body will let me down yet again. I know that with prayer and belief that some day (hopefully) soon I will get to announce a pregnancy. It is something we have been longing for...for 4yrs. With every negative test, failed pregnancy attempt, wasted cycle, and fertility let downs....I feel deep down inside that a piece of me is dying . It gets harder and harder to keep my head up and 'keep a smile' on my face. But everyday I try my best.

On September 21, 2005 I had my second 'unexplained' miscarriage, some say that with time the emptiness will heal. I don't agree in my case, time doesn't take away the past...to me time just reminds me that I could of had a 3yr old and hopefully would of been pregnant with a second child. I just pray everyday that my chances of conceiving still exists.

Well, for now I will end this and do another update in the next few days.

Just a quick update...

As of today I am 3dpo and I have tried on numerous occasions to upload a vlog...all errors after taking 1hr+ to upload. It gets frustrating, but I am determined to get one posted. I have MANY things that I have planned for many videos but not one video would upload. What I am going to try instead is get ALL my videos recorded by Wednesday next week and go to Panera Bread or Starbucks and get them all uploaded...FINGERS CROSSED that it works.

Anyways, back to my cycle. So far so good...not too event full. Although today I almost fell and instead I did a half slit. It scared the crap put of me and ever since my left side of my pubic area feels sore...I may have just strained it or pulled a muscle. I HOPE that it doesn't ruin our chances this month. Also, this cycle (just like the past cycles) I ovulated on CD17! YAY! Two days prior, the day of and 1 day past I had egg white cervical mucus. So that is a plus. We are using PreSeed with this cycle which brings me to my next point: I am going to do a review and Q&A on PreSeed so if you have anything you want me to go over...please feel free to ask.

As of today I am still waiting for the products from fairhavenhealth.com to start my product reviews...in the mean time check them out and if you see anything you like use coupon code: Autumnblog to get 10% off (Exp 11/1/2009).

As of now I am going to cut this a little short...bummer [insert sad face here]...we are getting ready to head to bed. My husband works all day tomorrow and needs his rest. Be on the look out for some vlogs in the mean time.

Excited for this opportunity!!!!

If you read the title and wondering what's going on here is your chance to find out! I was approached by a representative from www.fairhavenhealth.com to do some product reviews, I am extremely excited to be given this opportunity! FINALLY!!! I might get pregnant after 4yrs of TTC and two miscarriages. I am hoping that I will be able to get that BFP within 1-2 cycles. The products that I (or I should say we, my husband and I) will be doing reviews on are: FERTILAID FOR MEN AND WOMAN also BEND, BREATHE, & CONCEIVE - FERTILITY YOGA. So be on the look out for those reviews, I will also be vlogging about it on my Youtube Channel so feel free to subscribe. {At the end of this post you will find the links to my YT Channel, Twitter, and Facebook accounts...add me as a friend and you will get all the scoop!}

I am going to be doing many different things with my blog and YT....so be on the look out for that. I have been thinking off different ways to get my viewers/followers more interactive and more educated about their Fertility and ways to maximize their chances to get pregnant.

Okay, I know this post is all over the place but I have TONS to go over. First, I wanted to ask anyone out there if they have any questions that they wanted to ask me and I will be making a video to answer them all. I am in the process right now of getting my second Q&A video recorded and posted. So feel free to watch them and if you have any questions at all that come to mind either post a comment on my video, post a comment here, go to my facebook and post it on my wall, where ever you feel more comfortable to send me you questions please do so. Second, I will be doing a review on a book that I read and some vitamins that I am taking. Of there is any book that you would like me to review just let me know in a message and I will do my best to get it done ASAP. I am always looking for new books and products to do reviews on. Third, I have done this in the past on my YT channel and will start doing it again...I will be giving TIPS that I find in books, magazines, and articles.

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CD 1 - 3 ~ 8/29/2009 - 8/31/2009

Date Saturday August 29, 2009 - CD1

11:35AM- Today I am 3 ½ days late for AF. I am extremely excited because this could mean that I am pregnant! YAY! After 4yrs of trying for a baby this could be it. But at the same time I am trying not to get my hopes up, only time will tell what will happen.

2:23PM- Took an Early Pregnancy Test and Walgreens Early Response Test and both of which were negative. I still have a little bit of hope, because my pregnancy test for my first pregnancy test came up negative until AF was 2-3 weeks late. On another note I am having dull cramps which gets me thinking it could be implantation or something like that…who knows.

4:30PM- And let the disappointments begin! AF just started….WTHell! I honestly thought ‘this is it’ I am FINALLY going to be pregnant. Well…rain on my parade! Those cramps resulted in AF and I am NOT happy. Words cannot describe what I am feeling nor what disappointments my body has given me yet again. I am so ready to give up! I don’t know how much more of this I can take. But for now I guess you can say that I will continue to TTC. I am praying with all of my heart that this time will be it. I don’t know how much more I can take of this and I am starting to think that I am not meant to have any children on this earth. Only time will tell what the future will hold for us. And we just pray that it will be in our favor. On a quick note: AF is a little light and every once in a while has a mucus consistency to it.

Date Sunday August 30, 2009 - CD2

1:16PM- Last night was not a good night. I was up numerous times through the night with cramps. It was so hard to get comfortable and able to sleep. When the alarm went off this morning for Manny I woke up, still sleepy of course, but managed to give him a kiss and sign of the cross for him. A little after he left I was in and out of sleep. Then finally out of bed around 11:30am. I am still having cramps around the left side of my uterus, and I am very uncomfortable. I am not going to take anything for the pain, it is better for me to just wait for the pain to end by itself. I am praying that this cycle is 30 days and not 35 days like last cycle. I took 2-ProCreation pills so far today, I am going to take the rest of my pills later today and log them.

Date Monday August 1, 2009 - CD3

9:39AM- Today was the same as last night…ugh. I don’t know why the cramps would bother me while I am sleeping, and usually I only get cramps the first two days and only in the day time. My body is doing weird this this time around, I guess I am just going to have to pay more attention to my body this cycle (if that could ever happen…lol). 10:48PM- When is this TTC going to end? Come on now…4yrs…what did I do to deserve this??? Well anyways just wanted to log in that today felt like a lazy day, I didn’t have the ‘strength’ to do anything. On the plus side my apartment was clean so I could just relax today. Oh, and I can’t for get to mention that I had cramps through out the day…I am tired of AF!!!! I guess I will just leave it at that…One last thing AF if you are listening, ’I HATE YOU!’ …okay goodbye now.

July 25th - Aug 25th cycle

Date Thursday July 23, 2009 - 12DPO

Today I had slight spotting in the afternoon, then it went away. The spotting was more of an egg white CM with a brown tint to it, nothing alarming at all. Slight cramps to day along with a headache but that headache was caused be stress. Felt like I needed to take a nap halfway through the day. Today was very uneventful.

Date Friday July 24, 2009 - 13DPO

We Baby Danced today in the very early morning at around 1AM. Today the cramps were still there a little more than yesterday, I suspect that AF will be coming very soon. UPDATE: Well more spotting today at around 3PM, so AF is officially going to show her ugly face. Sux, but this last cycle we really didn’t do much TTCing at all. This new cycle we are going to work overtime! I was very emotional at around 11PM today, must be AF hormones or me just missing Poncho. I actually feel VERY guilty to be trying to get pregnant right now, com’on I mean look at it in this point to view; it hasn’t been a year since Poncho passed away. But I also look at it this way we have been trying for over 4yrs and one day when Poncho and I were talking about me and Manny having a family he looked at me and told me that if I evr had a son to name him Christian Arturo. And now more than every we are trying to give him a nephew that will carry his last name. I know that having a son will not replace the hurt that I have in my heart from the loss of Poncho, but I do know that more than ever I want to have that son and give him the more beautiful name he could ever have. Manny and I have talked about if I EVER got pregnant with twin boys that we could name one Christian Guadalupe Sanchez and one Arturo Guadalupe Sanchez. If we get pregnant with a single boy we cant Christianarturo Guadalupe Sanchez. We added the middle name as Guadalupe because he always told me that La Virgen de Guadalupe was his Reina and when he passed away I bought him a statue of La Reina and a Rosary. Well that is all for now I am so emotional right now that I need to just relax with Manny and pray to Poncho.

Date Saturday July 25, 2009 - CD1

Its freaking official, AF is here. I know I put in my last entry that I didn’t suspect me to be pregnant but in the back of my mind I was hoping that I would be. Well there is always this cycle and I am praying harder than ever that it will happen sooner than later. Today AF is a little on the medium side but I do have cramps and its more so in the center of my uterus than on one side. I have a headache as well but that is caused by stress I guess. UPDATE: Today was my Tia Gaby’s baby shower so I went. It was nice but be being on AF and starting a new cycle emotionally did NOT want to be there. Also, Marlena and I went to Dreams and had a great time. The drinks weren’t that great but it has been MONTHS since I have gone out and MONTHS since I have had a drink so it felt good to go out and just relax. Next week (Friday I think) we are going to go to Heat (a nightclub) to dance and have a few drinks. I am going to relax and have a good time and not let anything get to me or in my way. By then I will be CD7, so I am planning to take it a little easy and not drink too much. Because hopefully by then I will have my plan down in writing and be able to pin point what I need to be doing to better my chances in pregnancy.

So here are my plans for this cycle (remember that it is NOT set in stone yet, I am still working on a day by day plan that I will have by the end of the day Monday hopefully!):

-Continue to take my Folic Acid in the morning

-Continue to take my Iron Pills in the morning as well

-Take ProCreation (2pills) in the morning as well [Manny will be doing the same]

-Drink LOTS & LOTS of water

-Meditated frequently! [especially during the 2ww]

-TRY my hardest to be stress free

-Baby Dance regularly

-OPK’s starting on CD10

-BBT (temps) [and stick with it!]

-Check Cervical Mucus

-Check the position of my Cervix

So far this is what I have but remember I will hopefully have it all figured out by Monday and stick with my plan. I am going to work harder than ever to make this my routine until I do in fact get pregnant.

Date Sunday July 26, 2009 - CD2

I hate being on AF! I am going to work extremely hard this cycle to achieve that BFP! It is my promise to myself and to Manny. It has been an extremely hard, long, frustrating, and an emotional roller coaster to TTC. I believe the harder that we work at it and more that we prove to God that we want this, he will eventually send us our miracle sooner than later. Okay going back on the subject, I am having cramps in the left side closer to my ovary than yesterday. It kind of feels like someone is punching my left ovary and from time to time it feels like my ovary is just floating in my body, not attached to anything to hold it down. It fells like it is turning like the world does around and around not stopping for a minute. I am also getting very moody from time to time today for no reason at all. UGH! Well that is all for today, tomorrow I have a lot that I want to get done and have a detailed plan for this cycle.

~*~*~*~This is what I have so far in my journal that I keep on my laptop. I will be keeping a better journal from now on...I just had huge gaps that I wasn't using my laptop.~*~*~*~

2ww

As of today I am 11dpo, I have continuously been keeping up with my BBT's. I have got to admit they look like a disaster roller coaster ride! I had a slight dip today and I have been reading that once implantation is taking place there might be a rise or dip in temps. I am praying harder than ever that this is true! I would love nothing more in this world to get that BFP! This 2ww, at times seem too long and at other times going by too fast. I have been keeping myself very busy these last few days, so I can get my mind off of it. Only the Lord knows what is in store for us. I have been praying so hard during this 2ww for a BFP, and I DO believe in miracles so I am hoping ours is around the corner. Well, as of now I am going to keep this post fairly short. Any questions just ask. :)

Dios Mio, Padre Mio te piedo un milagro grande de mi vida!

CD 13 - 16 ~ 5/7/2009 - 5/10/2009

-On day 13 I had some sticky cervical mucus (discharge) late in the day. I took my SlowFe Iron pill (47.5mcg), and Folic Acid (400mcg). I did not use my Fertility Monitor. BUT I did use my Early-Pregnancy-Test.com OPK and there was an extreme FAINT FAINT FAINT line!

-On day 14 I had a good amount of sticky cervical mucus (discharge). I took my SlowFe Iron pill (47.5mcg), and Folic Acid (400mcg). Did not use my Fertility Monitor, but I did use my E-P-T.com OPK and the line was still FAINT (as the day before.)

-On day 15 I had a significant amount of sticky cervical mucus (discharge). I took my SlowFe Iron pill (47.5mcg), and Folic Acid (400mcg). Did not use my Fertility Monitor, but I did use my E-P-T.com OPK and the line was still FAINT (as CD13 & CD14). WE BABY DANCED!!!

-On day 16 I had a GREAT amount of sticky cervical mucus (discharge). I took my SlowFe Iron pill (47.5mcg), and Folic Acid (400mcg). Did not use my Fertility Monitor, but I did use my E-P-T.com OPK and the line was still FAINT (as CD13, CD14, & CD 15). WE BABY DANCED!!!