Date Thursday July 23, 2009 - 12DPO
Today I had slight spotting in the afternoon, then it went away. The spotting was more of an egg white CM with a brown tint to it, nothing alarming at all. Slight cramps to day along with a headache but that headache was caused be stress. Felt like I needed to take a nap halfway through the day. Today was very uneventful.
Date Friday July 24, 2009 - 13DPO
We Baby Danced today in the very early morning at around 1AM. Today the cramps were still there a little more than yesterday, I suspect that AF will be coming very soon. UPDATE: Well more spotting today at around 3PM, so AF is officially going to show her ugly face. Sux, but this last cycle we really didn’t do much TTCing at all. This new cycle we are going to work overtime! I was very emotional at around 11PM today, must be AF hormones or me just missing Poncho. I actually feel VERY guilty to be trying to get pregnant right now, com’on I mean look at it in this point to view; it hasn’t been a year since Poncho passed away. But I also look at it this way we have been trying for over 4yrs and one day when Poncho and I were talking about me and Manny having a family he looked at me and told me that if I evr had a son to name him Christian Arturo. And now more than every we are trying to give him a nephew that will carry his last name. I know that having a son will not replace the hurt that I have in my heart from the loss of Poncho, but I do know that more than ever I want to have that son and give him the more beautiful name he could ever have. Manny and I have talked about if I EVER got pregnant with twin boys that we could name one Christian Guadalupe Sanchez and one Arturo Guadalupe Sanchez. If we get pregnant with a single boy we cant Christianarturo Guadalupe Sanchez. We added the middle name as Guadalupe because he always told me that La Virgen de Guadalupe was his Reina and when he passed away I bought him a statue of La Reina and a Rosary. Well that is all for now I am so emotional right now that I need to just relax with Manny and pray to Poncho.
Date Saturday July 25, 2009 - CD1
Its freaking official, AF is here. I know I put in my last entry that I didn’t suspect me to be pregnant but in the back of my mind I was hoping that I would be. Well there is always this cycle and I am praying harder than ever that it will happen sooner than later. Today AF is a little on the medium side but I do have cramps and its more so in the center of my uterus than on one side. I have a headache as well but that is caused by stress I guess. UPDATE: Today was my Tia Gaby’s baby shower so I went. It was nice but be being on AF and starting a new cycle emotionally did NOT want to be there. Also, Marlena and I went to Dreams and had a great time. The drinks weren’t that great but it has been MONTHS since I have gone out and MONTHS since I have had a drink so it felt good to go out and just relax. Next week (Friday I think) we are going to go to Heat (a nightclub) to dance and have a few drinks. I am going to relax and have a good time and not let anything get to me or in my way. By then I will be CD7, so I am planning to take it a little easy and not drink too much. Because hopefully by then I will have my plan down in writing and be able to pin point what I need to be doing to better my chances in pregnancy.
So here are my plans for this cycle (remember that it is NOT set in stone yet, I am still working on a day by day plan that I will have by the end of the day Monday hopefully!):
-Continue to take my Folic Acid in the morning
-Continue to take my Iron Pills in the morning as well
-Take ProCreation (2pills) in the morning as well [Manny will be doing the same]
-Drink LOTS & LOTS of water
-Meditated frequently! [especially during the 2ww]
-TRY my hardest to be stress free
-Baby Dance regularly
-OPK’s starting on CD10
-BBT (temps) [and stick with it!]
-Check Cervical Mucus
-Check the position of my Cervix
So far this is what I have but remember I will hopefully have it all figured out by Monday and stick with my plan. I am going to work harder than ever to make this my routine until I do in fact get pregnant.
Date Sunday July 26, 2009 - CD2
I hate being on AF! I am going to work extremely hard this cycle to achieve that BFP! It is my promise to myself and to Manny. It has been an extremely hard, long, frustrating, and an emotional roller coaster to TTC. I believe the harder that we work at it and more that we prove to God that we want this, he will eventually send us our miracle sooner than later. Okay going back on the subject, I am having cramps in the left side closer to my ovary than yesterday. It kind of feels like someone is punching my left ovary and from time to time it feels like my ovary is just floating in my body, not attached to anything to hold it down. It fells like it is turning like the world does around and around not stopping for a minute. I am also getting very moody from time to time today for no reason at all. UGH! Well that is all for today, tomorrow I have a lot that I want to get done and have a detailed plan for this cycle.
~*~*~*~This is what I have so far in my journal that I keep on my laptop. I will be keeping a better journal from now on...I just had huge gaps that I wasn't using my laptop.~*~*~*~
