A long awaited update

Isn't it funny how I do updates frequently then all of a sudden out of no where I go missing?

This time it is very different, believe me I tired to update numerous times.

Let's review shall we:

-the end of January we decided to move.
-we got approved for this apartment in which we are at now on January 29th only 5 days after we decided to move.
-we had to give the old landlord a 30 day notice so I was running all over town trying to get a notarized letter and serve it to him.
-February 2nd we signed the contract for this apartment. And started moving things over.
-through out the first 2 1/2 weeks of this month we were bringing things over little by little.
-instead of using boxes for everything I just bought plastic bins and filled them with things and bring them to our new apartment and unload it.
-my birthday was on the 21st and we had a birthday party on the 20th for my niece and nephew.

This list doesn't begin to cover our daily activities. Which would bore you. So you see we have been busy.

Anyways so its estimated that I ovulated on CD16 which was the 22nd. As of now I am in the 2ww, this cycle I was doing my temps and using my monitor but with the move I just got way too busy. If I did ovulate on CD16 then as of now on February 26th I am 4DPO.

I keep forgetting that I am in the 2ww because I really didn't chart and we literally only baby danced twice. If we do in fact get pregnant than I would be due in November. I pray that this is it for us, but only God knows for sure. I have Faith in Him and know my time is soon to come.

So let's see what else is there to update on? ...I have posted a few videos the last few days on YT feel free to check them out:

http://www.youtube.com/LYDISANC21

Oh, I forgot to mention that I watched 16 & Pregnant for the first time. The first two I watched where okay not too much drama. But the last one with Jenelle was a train wreck! I really wanted to grab her and smack her upside the head! Tomorrow and over the weekend I am going to go online and catch up a little. We will see how that goes.

As for now I am going to leave it at that. Have a great weekend and stay safe!

LET'S GET PREGNANT!!!

2010 IS OUR YEAR!!!
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I will NOT be defeated!!!

Today is CD1 at first I though I would take it hard (as I have always in the past), but that was not the case. I honestly took it way better than ever before.  I surprised myself, instead of shedding some tears and hating the world, I looked at the positive side of things.

The first thought that came into my mind was; 'hey my 2ww  was the normal 14days even though I O'ed later,' another thing was 'I know that I O'ed and my cycles are normal, I AF didn't go MIA and I would have to stress about being irregular.'   Even though we have been TTCing for 52 months, I actually looked at the plus side of things.  I am going to try to keep that up.

As far as this new cycle I am sticking to my game plan from last cycle.  Also, I have been thinking of adding the 'Sperm Meets Egg Plan.'  I KNOW that soon I will be announcing my pregnancy. I guess you can say that is keeping me sane and helping me keep a positive out look on life.

We are in the process of moving so that is keeping me busy and hopefully keeping the TTC stress to a minimum.    I know that this new start will bring us to new beginnings.

Well that is all for now, I just wanted to let you know that I am on CD1 and I have FAITH that SOON we will be announcing a pregnancy!

LET'S GET PREGNANT!!!

2010 IS OUR YEAR!!! 

On my mind...

Ready to write off this cycle...

Ready to call it quits...

Ready to say I am no longer a fighter...

Ready to announce I will let myself be defeated...

Ready to give up this 4yr battle...

Ready to walk away from it ALL...

Ready to say I've had enough and let this piece of crap get the better of me...

I am just ready to end it all...

I am seriously thinking about letting myself waste away and not do a thing about it. I am so exhausted from this so called 'challenge'. I seriously hate this situation I am in especially when others that don't deserve what I want get it easier than me. And for what...to destroy a life...to murder the innocent...throw away God's miracle that other fight to have.

After this cycle I think that I am going to consider walking away from it all. Depending on how 'strong' I feel...
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Sick of it al...

I am tired of all the let downs, all the tears, all the frustration, tired of all the charting, sick of wasting money on crap that should 'help' get me pregnant...

SICK OF IT ALL!!!

Why is it so easy for others around me to get pregnant? And yet here I am 4yrs of trying and nothing is happening?!?! Why can't it be easier for us all.

I have been told MANY times, 'in the end it will all be worth it'. But that doesn't guarantee that in the end I will have a baby in my hands. That doesn't guarantee that I won't go bankrupt trying to get my miracle.

I know God only gives us what we can handle, but I don't know how much more of it I can handle. It has been 4yrs too long! Every day I pray for my miracle, every day I feel that pain in my heart, everyday I shed a tear, every day I feel resentment to those that have it easier than I do.

I can tell you this my faith is being tested. Many times I have thought about throwing in the towel, but for what?!?!

I just pray my time is around the corner. This has affected my marriage, my life, relationships. I just want to be able to hold my head up high and shout, 'I am NOT defeated!!! I have won the battle!!! I am pregnant!!!'

But will that day ever come? Will my dreams ever come true? Until then all I can do is pray and hope it does...

LET'S GET PREGNANT!!!

2010 IS OUR YEAR!!!


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Uncalled for comments!

***This posting was originally wrote on 12/18/2009 I just needed to get this off of my chest and by me publishing it I feel that it will help me do that.  This IS a blog on venting so you do not have to read it (the choice is yours).***


Don't you hate it when people around you tell you to 'just relax' and it will happen?  Or stop reading all the books, quit charting, quit doing the ovulation tests, when it's your time to have a baby it will happen?  Do you need a surrogate, if so I can be one for you?  Here's another one:  you replaced having a baby with getting a dog?

These are the questions that I hear many times in my life, some come from family and some come from acquaintances.  I am getting sick and tired of people around me thinking that I am the reason why I am not getting pregnant and they feel that they have to put their two-cents in , what gives them the right to try to tell me how to live my life?!  To top it off I got a rude and uncalled for comment from a family member yesterday it is so rude that I am going to share it with you:

"oh, you got a dog because you haven't gotten pregnant yet? What you two are not trying anymore?"


WHAT KIND OF CRAP IS THAT?!?!?!  I mean come one people think before you speak!  Seriously!!!  Oh, and that isn't all she had the nerve to say it in front of my husband, which REALLY (beeped) me off!  I kindly (which was hard BTW) responded:

"No, we have had Petty (my dog) since 2004 when he was born.  He is NOT a replacement for not having a baby, he is part of our family and we consider him a child to us.  That does not mean that I have given up trying to have a baby."


I have to apologize ahead of time because this posting might get a little ugly, while writing this I am getting filled with the anger I had yesterday.  Sorry.

Here is my take on this and my beliefs:

1.  This person should of kept their mouth shut!  They have not been part of my life and never made a point to   be.

2.  I do not appreciate people around me coming to conclusions about my life and my golas.

3.  Unless a person is a part of the conceiving part, they have NO SAY in what I choose to do to get to my goal.

4.  This person has not made it a point to be in my life nor has cared to be.  So I don't see why its any of their business what I am doing.

5.  People like this need to be punched in the face!

6.  People like this need to keep their mouth shut!

7.  People like this needs to stay out of my life!  Because next time (family or not) I WILL set the record straight!

Granted that these are only a few points I wanted to make, I think I got my point across.  I feel a little better now and I think that by letting this off my chest I can breath.  Sorry if this post made you uncomfortable, but I just really need to vent.

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Mini update...

So today I am on CD6, AF ended her ugly visit on CD3 but I did have spotting on CD4 (normal). I will start the OPK's on CD8 or CD9, depending on my temps which by the way I forgot to take yesterday when I woke up...it wouldn't of been accurate because I kept waking up every 2-3hrs.

Anyways, I finally came up with a great game plan that I have to write out (its in my head). I know I have been saying that for a long time now but I always forget to do it, although I am following it daily. A sneak peak of my game plan:

-Maca
-Baby Aspirin
-Prenatals
-Vitamin B6
-OPK's
-charting/temps
-pineapple
-meditation
-PreSeed

I know what you are thinking: what's up with the Maca and pineapple??? Don't worry I promise I will actually sit down and write out my game plan for you in the morning (well when I wake up...seeing that it is past midnight).

Btw, I have recorded my game plan video two days ago but still haven't gotten it up loaded so later today when I record my TTC update and up loaded, there will be 2 new videos (maybe 3) from me. I want to apologize in advance for that, all weekend I didn't have a chance to get it up loaded. Well, I had the time but I ended up spending most of it reading, catching up with videos, catching up on blogs, and on Twitter/Facebook.

I have a busy week ahead of me and I set a daily goal for myself so I don't fall behind. And on the plus side I was asked to write an entry for another blog site on how blogging has helped me through my infertility. I am so excited and happy I was asked to do this and once it is posted I will have a link to it.

Well, enough excitement for right now I am going to try and get some sleep. Good night/day.

LET'S GET PREGNANT!!!

2010 IS OUR YEAR!!!


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